Rollercoaster Ride!

That's what I feel like I'm on! Today I was told that although some other families got a court date, that we did not. There is no reason for it. Our phone call will come soon and our court date will probably be within a week or two from Feb 16th (the date that the other families got). This should be OK right????? Well, in the real world yes, but here in Adoption world every little wait seems like an eternity. Don't get me wrong, I am really, really happy for the other families, but I want our date. You see International Adoption, or probably any adoption for that matter is a roller coaster ride with your emotions. Ups, downs, twists, turns, you can't control it. In my head I know that a week or two won't make a difference, but my heart says something else. You know the feeling you get a week or two before you are getting married, or a week before or after your baby is due, or a week before you are about to go on a trip of a life time, well I've done all three of those things, and this feeling doesn't compare. Your stomach gets tied up in knots, you feel like you are going to cry or throw up at any minute and your mood drops instantly. All this because your phone didn't ring today. It's crazy, and in the end it will all be worth it!